Friday, January 21, 2011

Change

My world is about to change, My baby is off to college, after all the applications and portfolio reviews and finals and somewhere in there the holidays. Now the fafsa is submitted and she has had her first couple of acceptance letters. It's really happening. I am a rats nest of emotions about it. Come september I will be without a kid at home for the first time in 29 years.
      I'm afraid I haven't taught her everything she needs to know, and this has resulted in my turning into the talking encyclopedia of random stuff I may have missed telling her, and believe me when I say she is SO not listening now.
     I'm excited at the prospect of rediscovering who I am when I'm alone, and worry a little that I might not be at all impressed, and then theres that small but persistant nagging fear that I may disappear in a puff of obsolescence. .......  but I've been parenting long enough now to know it never really ends.
See what I mean, rats nest.